Step of faith

I did it. I told my supervisor and team leader about wanting to resign. On one hand, I feel so bad, as though I 'cheated' them of paying me 4 months of maternity leave. To feel a wee bit better, I told myself "only 2 lah.. 2 was paid for by the government..." It is also tough explaining to relatives and friends why I wanted to be a stay-home mum. "Why not get a maid?", "Isn't it a waste of your degree?" and "How about childcare centres?" are just some of the common helpful suggestions thrown up. It is tough not to waiver!

So for now, I resolve to keep good track of my expenses! No more shopping at whim, especially online shopping! Have. to. limit. online. shopping. I have had enough of disappointments with online buys! Sigh. Lost count of the times I felt cheated by the material and cut of items that looked so good on the screen, but cannot make it when I receive the items in mail.

I am also worried I will become so overwhelmed by the housework and daily taking care of the kids that I lose the joy and focus too soon. Help me always remember why I love my kids.

2011 reflections

It's been so long since I blogged that this entry should probably be titled "2010 and 2011 reflections"! It's been a crazy few months, since Leanne arrived in October.

2011 has been most challenging, especially the last 3 months. Now I know why they say the transition from 1 child to 2 kids is the toughest! And I have newfound respect for families with more than 2 kids. There is totally zilch me time. And I have not had time for my yearly rebounding ritual. I can't afford more than 3 hours at the salon now so say "hi" to unruly hair for now!

So what are some of my more memorable moments this year?

1. Pregnancy

I had forgotten how it was like since my last pregnancy was 3 years ago! I remember telling an ex colleague previously that I will miss being pregnant. I guess I will still say the same thing now. Being so connected to the baby, feeling every movement (ok maybe not every..), every ultrasound scan, the excitement of finding out the baby's gender et cetra, are so precious!

2. Lincoln starts school

Although it was horrible at first as he had much problems adjusting to school, I can safely say he enjoys school now. Minus all the initial adjustments, cranky and insecure behaviour, it is really one of the best things to happen.

3. Leanne's arrival

Truly blessed with a precious daughter, who is really such a dear to look after. She is an incredibly easy baby and very sweet. I believe she is trying to talk to me already! But more on that in another post!

4. Importance of family and friends

Finding time to spend with friends is even tougher now with 2 kids. But it's something I definitely don't want to give up. As for family, their support (especially practical ones!) are really priceless and so so crucial.

I start 2012 with greater responsibility and hopes. God, help me!